Money Woes - Just Blowing Off Steam

[Tedium]

Thanks guys. Everyone has been giving me great advice.

In reference to a few of the comments: I corresponded with them before I applied to see if they had a payment plan or some sort of discount, and the only one offered is a $50 discount in August. It's $500 CAD, so I'm already getting a nice discount paying with American currency. No payment plan. That discount is not insubstantial, and worth the wait perhaps, I just wanted to get it started a lot sooner and have some solid stories written and critiqued, ready to go out around the time I was taking my final classes. I wanted to use this lull in-between semesters to really put all of my focus on my writing. This was supposed to be my step-up from my local amateur writing group. I've waited so long to do this already. Like I said, I'm frustrated and disappointed, that's all.

I'm going to do what I can to try and raise the funds now, but if I can't, I'll probably see about re-applying in the fall. You can apply anytime, I think the wait is because they are looking for a mentor spot to open up when an application is accepted. I don't know exactly when the funds are due, but from the sound of the previous e-mails, it sounds like pretty immediately. I sent a query a few hours after they sent the acceptance, so I'll probably have to wait until Monday to find out.

Not being able to pay for the mentorship kind of mixed together with feelings of stagnation I had about my current job and financial station, and how long it has taken me to graduate. It all came to a head when I opened that e-mail. It's hard not to get bummed about it every once in a while. I still have my eyes on the prize. I'm not quitting or anything, but sometimes you have to stop for a minute to scream into a pillow or break something non-valuable/essential.