06-04-2018, 09:58 AM
PLEASE DO NOT let your sister ever make you feel like your life is useless or unbearable. My daughter was verbally abused by her husband and attempted suicide twice. As a mother I can't tell you how much that scared and hurt me. Even if your parents don't treat you right or understand you now, and they have a poor way of showing you verbally, I am sure they do Love you and want you in their life.
I am now an OLD lady compared to you, but believe me I have gone through many hard times when I was younger. There were so many times I wanted to end my life and once I even made a (Weak) attempt at it. What I am trying to say is things change, things always change. What seems like an unlivable situation now will change and something else will become more important.
My sons are 10 and 12 years older then you, when they were your age they practically hated each other and neither one could talk civilly to the other. Now they both live with us and actually (kind of) get along. They are not best friends, but they do some things together hang out once in a while and go out to eat. So there is hope that once your sister matures your relationship will get better. Know that your parents are probably just doing the best they can do with the information they have and the many other things they are handling.
I will also tell you even when my sons were at their worst with each other they would be the first to come to the defense of their brother if someone else put one down and he wasn't there.
Please continue to see a mental health professional, it sounds like you could use a lot of self esteem repair, if you even consider offing yourself and your father can call you such disgusting names, you need someone to help you see how worthy you are. I can see that just reading what you have written here.
Please do keep us up on how you are doing and the great progress you are making towards your degree.
I am now an OLD lady compared to you, but believe me I have gone through many hard times when I was younger. There were so many times I wanted to end my life and once I even made a (Weak) attempt at it. What I am trying to say is things change, things always change. What seems like an unlivable situation now will change and something else will become more important.
My sons are 10 and 12 years older then you, when they were your age they practically hated each other and neither one could talk civilly to the other. Now they both live with us and actually (kind of) get along. They are not best friends, but they do some things together hang out once in a while and go out to eat. So there is hope that once your sister matures your relationship will get better. Know that your parents are probably just doing the best they can do with the information they have and the many other things they are handling.
I will also tell you even when my sons were at their worst with each other they would be the first to come to the defense of their brother if someone else put one down and he wasn't there.
Please continue to see a mental health professional, it sounds like you could use a lot of self esteem repair, if you even consider offing yourself and your father can call you such disgusting names, you need someone to help you see how worthy you are. I can see that just reading what you have written here.
Please do keep us up on how you are doing and the great progress you are making towards your degree.
Linda
Start by doing what is necessary: then do the possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible St Francis of Assisi
Now a retired substitute Teacher in NY, & SC
AA Liberal Studies TESC '08
BA in Natural Science/Mathematics TESC Sept '10
AAS Environmental safety and Security Technology TESC Dec '12
Start by doing what is necessary: then do the possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible St Francis of Assisi
Now a retired substitute Teacher in NY, & SC
AA Liberal Studies TESC '08
BA in Natural Science/Mathematics TESC Sept '10
AAS Environmental safety and Security Technology TESC Dec '12