11 hours ago
Background:
When I had just finished high school, my parents forced me to go to medical school to become a nurse. I was very young and inexperienced at that time, and I didn’t know what I wanted to do in my life, so I agreed. Additionally, I am from a small town (a rural area) in a developing country in Southern Europe, and in my town there was only this medical school. Maybe this is the main reason why my parents so deliberately wanted me to study there. They didn’t pay anything for my education because I had very strong high school grades.
The whole education consisted of four years, including clinical practice and theoretical studies. However, I had no interest in this field, so I started working full time (six days a week) in a local factory, where I could pay for all my expenses and feel quite good financially, while continuously missing medical college for three years. During my third and fourth years, COVID-19 even helped me avoid expulsion from school.
In general, since my school was in a small rural area, my professors were not very motivated to teach students. Corruption and nepotism were widespread in this college. I didn’t want to disappoint my parents, so I continued studying as best as I could. Sometimes I paid for my exams, and sometimes professors simply gave me a passing grade without any effort on my part. I barely passed the national exam at the end of my education.
Finally, I received a diploma without having any real nursing knowledge, and I never planned to work in this profession because I truly hated it. After finishing this college, I started working in multiple fields, traveled to many places, and learned English from scratch. I also started a career in accounting, working remotely for a U.S. firm. Additionally, I earned an Associate’s degree in accounting (and I am currently working on a Bachelor’s degree Accounting and CIS) from Thomas Edison State University, since this college charges the same rate for international students abroad and accepts various types of credits, such as ACE credits.
I am fascinated by accounting and computer science, and I am also good at programming. I feel that I really want to immigrate to the United States, and the most transparent and fastest pathway for me is the EB-3 nursing visa. It is relatively easy to find an employer, and I already have the education I mentioned above. However, in addition to that, I need at least one year of bedside experience and to pass the NCLEX-RN exam for an agency to accept me.
I thought I was capable of doing that, so I found a job as an OR nurse in my home country. However, I feel overwhelmed by all of this information (yesterday was my first day), and I am starting to hesitate about what I should do with my life. I also started NCLEX preparation, but I realize that I don’t know basic anatomy and biology. My coworkers also think that I am incompetent in this job because I don’t know anything. But will work under constant supervision at least a few month, so I am confident that I will not harm any patient.
Now I am very confused about what I should do next. Should I give a chance to myself or just quit?
When I had just finished high school, my parents forced me to go to medical school to become a nurse. I was very young and inexperienced at that time, and I didn’t know what I wanted to do in my life, so I agreed. Additionally, I am from a small town (a rural area) in a developing country in Southern Europe, and in my town there was only this medical school. Maybe this is the main reason why my parents so deliberately wanted me to study there. They didn’t pay anything for my education because I had very strong high school grades.
The whole education consisted of four years, including clinical practice and theoretical studies. However, I had no interest in this field, so I started working full time (six days a week) in a local factory, where I could pay for all my expenses and feel quite good financially, while continuously missing medical college for three years. During my third and fourth years, COVID-19 even helped me avoid expulsion from school.
In general, since my school was in a small rural area, my professors were not very motivated to teach students. Corruption and nepotism were widespread in this college. I didn’t want to disappoint my parents, so I continued studying as best as I could. Sometimes I paid for my exams, and sometimes professors simply gave me a passing grade without any effort on my part. I barely passed the national exam at the end of my education.
Finally, I received a diploma without having any real nursing knowledge, and I never planned to work in this profession because I truly hated it. After finishing this college, I started working in multiple fields, traveled to many places, and learned English from scratch. I also started a career in accounting, working remotely for a U.S. firm. Additionally, I earned an Associate’s degree in accounting (and I am currently working on a Bachelor’s degree Accounting and CIS) from Thomas Edison State University, since this college charges the same rate for international students abroad and accepts various types of credits, such as ACE credits.
I am fascinated by accounting and computer science, and I am also good at programming. I feel that I really want to immigrate to the United States, and the most transparent and fastest pathway for me is the EB-3 nursing visa. It is relatively easy to find an employer, and I already have the education I mentioned above. However, in addition to that, I need at least one year of bedside experience and to pass the NCLEX-RN exam for an agency to accept me.
I thought I was capable of doing that, so I found a job as an OR nurse in my home country. However, I feel overwhelmed by all of this information (yesterday was my first day), and I am starting to hesitate about what I should do with my life. I also started NCLEX preparation, but I realize that I don’t know basic anatomy and biology. My coworkers also think that I am incompetent in this job because I don’t know anything. But will work under constant supervision at least a few month, so I am confident that I will not harm any patient.
Now I am very confused about what I should do next. Should I give a chance to myself or just quit?
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